7. (eighteen line poem for gordon)

Sasha Steensen

He seems to me equal to gods that manin my eyes, he seems like god’s co-equal.He’ll hie me, par is he? The god divide me,he seems able to dizzy me, to make my stomach empty.If any museum had a postcard of Adonis,in his absence, I went and collected it.But even these could not rival the beautythat sunders unhappy me from all my senses.I mean to be always in his presence.Him, who my limbs give into, whose limbs give into me.We didst have chapped lips from kissing,We didst miss classes because we fucked.Both my eyes, like nights at noon, dark to all but him.We didst marry. Leisure is dangerousto me and it ruined fine cities but leisurealso in his eyes made orbs, made galaxiesand if I never let go his body grips me all(greener than grass I am dead—or almost, I seem to me).

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Sasha Steensen is the author of five books of poetry, most recently Gatherest (Ahsahta Press) and Everything Awake (Shearsman Press).  She has published several essays including Openings: Into Our Vertical Cosmos at Essay Press and The (Un)familiar Essay.  She is a poetry editor for Colorado Review and she teaches Creative Writing and Literature at Colorado State University.

Oxfordshire
England

Everything Awake was written during the dreamy, disorienting days of an extended period of insomnia. In the middle of the night, I began studying Catullus, imagining that his hendecasyllabic rhythms might shush me to sleep. Instead, they prompted a series of eleven-line poems with eleven syllables per line. I was drawn to the number, via Catullus, because it felt both excessive and insufficient, just like the space of an insomniac’s day. Eleven opened up onto an expanse in which I could think about dwelling, in a day, at the foot of a wind-swept mountain, in a family of humans, animals and plants, all of whom needed my care.

Like Catullus’s neoteric poems, these poems attempt to bring the private, domestic space to bear upon the larger, public sphere in hopes that each might inform the other. The assumption of these poems is an ancient one—our most basic daily acts of care, and our most intimate relationships, define our relationship to the larger world. My hope is that these poems might offer one humble account of care in our deeply damaged world. (Sasha Steensen)

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