tell em I ain’t playing with them no more. tell em I said: no more hide & seek. i said: go ahead & seek me out. tell em my body be galactic. tell em my body be guide home. tell em i been lost too long. i pray: make me like the stars my ancestors followed—captivating yet always eluding captivity. i pray: return me to (my star) dust. i say, i’ve been away from my star too long. may i draw no stargazers. let there be no gaze or watch upon me. i rebuke any surveil against me. tell em don’t look at me if you refuse to see me. ask them gawkers: can i have my face back now? tell em do not look at me if they only wanna capture me. if they only wanna consume me. if they only wanna feel my flesh burn upon their pallid touch.
but
if they should look at me & they should for some reason not see stars, but moon. if they should look at me & for some reason not see glow but shadow & if they are confounded because they thought only light equaled presence.
tell em i think the fuck not.
tell em that i be here. tell em that (whether of spirit or flesh) their eyes play no tricks. i said: tell em i be here. tell em—they should know that my dark body exists whether or not it reflects the light of their own.