I would’ve stabbed the man’s hand had he not jerked it away—this is what I usually saytoward the end of the story. The manhad pried back the right vinyl side panel of my living-room window’s A.C. unit, rippedthe accordion-style flap from its mounting track, and began palming the wall insidemy first-floor apartment. My exhad left at the beginning of summer and Natalia wouldn’t move in until spring, so I lived alonethat June in Richmond, in the back bottom suite of a shoebox-shaped fourplexset perpendicular to the street. In the storyI’ve told for almost twenty years, I’m a junior in college toweling my wet hairas I walk from my bathroom through the hall, headed to my bedroom, at two in the morning.I notice a flicker of motion from the living-room window: a human hand flopping, like live tilapia, throughthe side panel’s bent vinyl, the limb shoved in up to the elbow. I charge at the arm, yell,I see you, motherfucker, and the hand jerks back. The man flees. When I call 911and reach, incredibly, a busy signal, I phone Ed instead, who will drive over, remove his old A.C. unit, take itto his new place. Until Ed arrives, I hover near the pried-back vinylgripping a butcher knife. I would’ve stabbed the hand that tried to steal my A.C. This is howI tell it: I once thwarted a thief and he’s lucky I let him keep all his fingers. Last night,on the phone with my best friend, I retold the story and Alicia paused, then said,He wasn’t after your A.C. Twenty years ago, she must’ve said the exact same thing to me,but I’d brushed it off, positiveI’d terrified a thief. It was June in Richmond and I was young and held an unconditional beliefin a heat made utterly obscene from humidity. It got so hot I could imaginesomeone getting high and thinking, Goddamn, I need some A.C. My living-room window faceda small side lawn that abutted the back garden of a rich person’s town house: a low wallof calico brick from the nineteenth century with an overhanging fringe of dogwoods that hadby that point in summer expanded into a fatgreen canopy. At two in the morning no one would’ve seen him climb in—quickflicker between the brick and my window. I know years ago Alicia said the same thing,but I had to stop believing in my own permanence to hear her. But I stillbelieve in—deep summer, Virginia— that heat.
Unconditional Belief in Heat
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“Unconditional Belief in Heat” from THE JUDAS EAR: by Anna Journey.
Published by LSU Press in March 2022.
Copyright © 2022 by Anna Journey.
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Anna Journey is the author of the poetry collections The Judas Ear (2022), The Atheist Wore Goat Silk (2017), and Vulgar Remedies (2013), all from LSU Press, and If Birds Gather Your Hair for Nesting (University of Georgia Press, 2009), which was selected by Thomas Lux for the National Poetry Series. She’s also published the essay collection An Arrangement of Skin (Counterpoint, 2017). Her poems appear in The New Yorker, The Kenyon Review, FIELD, The Southern Review, and elsewhere. Journey has received fellowships from the Academy of American Poets, the National Endowment for the Arts, and Yaddo. She’s an associate professor of English at the University of Southern California.
“Between first and second readings of The Judas Ear, I could not shake Baba Yaga’s scent; a bearded, naked potter; and the biodegradable funeral suit of Luke Perry. Even now, Anna Journey’s lines echo like lines of a song. The final word is ‘blooming.’ The poems are big, rangy, expansive in Whitmanesque, democratic ways. They have a narrative charisma but maintain Dickinson’s perversity, independence. Journey is as much a storyteller as a poet. Few write with her variety of emotional, intellectual, and musical muscle. This is simply a masterful collection of poems.”
—Terrance Hayes, author of American Sonnets for My Past and Future Assassin
“On the rotting bark of the tree from which the faithless disciple hanged himself, or so they say: a mushroom called ‘the Judas ear.’ Perfectly edible. ‘Risen flesh, shape-shifting, everlasting,’ as the author of these beautiful poems has the wisdom to teach us over and over again. The ever-ingenious biosphere is Journey’s tutelary spirit, luminous figuration her genius, and narrative restored to its proper essence her discovery mode: inspiring elementals all.”
—Linda Gregerson, author of Canopy
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